Realizing I lost it all........

I realized tonight that I have lost yet another person that was important to me at one point in my life...but now is forever gone. I have had a couple men come in and out of my life and I tend to get attached really easily and put my trust in people really fast. My first "true love" was David and he left me devestated and absolutly heart broken. It has been a year and I am not completely healed.
My first semester of freshman year I dated a kid named Nick who ever since has been in and out of my life. But just tonight I was told by his friend that I am no longer allowed to communicate with Nick because I have now become just a bother to him. A statement that cuts deeper than you could possibly think. I have now lost someone else.
Between my summer after senior year and through till now I have had another Nick in my life as well and I found out this past weekend that I have to let him go more so than I am willing to because he has a familly now and his family does not like me as much as he does so I have to let go of three of the more important men in my life. Three of the men who changed me. I don't know if any of you have any idea how hard that is but the next week or so is going to be amazingly hard to get through because I am going to have to play happy while inside I am silently ripping apart.
Please don't ask me if I am ok, I just need to silently cry, not loudly bawl. Just let my heart break and my memories fade.